i wish your lies was a wish

iloveyou

2009-12-28T03:33:00.007+08:00

be my bff?

bruised and scarred

2009-12-28T02:47:00.005+08:00

im digging this song so bad ryte now!!!and i dig 'i swear this time i mean it' too!!!its fr my baby.maybe gnna find guitar chords to serenade her or smthing like dat.hope she loves it!!!but maybe she wont.idk.kinda cockup my voice nowadays.anywaes,this few weeks,its been fun hanging with my besty and her sibs.fav dem ryte now!!(:im actually otp with besty,pestering me to update this junk.so i did.erm,let the pics speak?ahha!!wadever.ohoh!!we totally bitch abt sec schl days today.dat was smthing.-.- a new yr is coming,n i hope me n besty will be still be as happy as we can be.i tink im gnna ask her smthing important by tonyte.idk wads her ans gnna be.cos shes tired and sounds so draggy ryte now.but ohwells ohwells,i still miss her bad.if i can,wich i would,i wanna see her now.

2009-11-03T23:08:00.002+08:00

i see our story unfold on the screen.
close ur eyes and press rewind,stop where u wish u want us to be.
open up ur eyes and tell me you hate me.
ill smile.
so pls,hold my hand,hold me close and whisper dose 3words.
dont see thru me like im invisible,cos we can be incredible togethr.
dont hurt me with ur silence,walking away frm us is gnna kill me.
if ure gnna do dat,kill me fast.
im gonna give you the world in ur tiny hands.
im gnna make ur walk so safe,its like ure walking on fine sand.
im gnna hold you close and say all dat my heart says jus so dat u'll stay.
im not gnna let you go.

xoxo

2009-11-02T22:29:00.002+08:00

i guess ive not given u enough.im trying to change.but smoking,i know u hate girls smoking.i know dat,but im quitting with e help of my besty.n u tink all wrong of her.u say u kip it all in,havent i too?y cnt u talk abt it n not presume dat shes bad jus frm e outside.shes more den dat.more den wad ive been looking fr.i dnt wan u to judge pls.i know ive fail u so many fuckup tymes,i know.im trying to change.its not easy u know.wit all dis new and old tinks gg around,its hard fr me to focus.

i feel fuckup.
i feel like i fail life.
wad more,i fail you mother.
i even feel i fail you,zahida

2009-10-28T00:16:00.002+08:00

this is endless.all words gone down e drain.imissyousomuch.i try to respect u as much as i can.but i jus cnt get enough of u.what hurts the most,is wen all u say has nth to do with all of it.like it use to.idk,maybe im jus blabbering nonsense.idk.

maybe,im jus living all dis jus cos i wanto.but deres smthing in me dats jus not in place.idk.idk wad it is.im finding it truely.but i jus cant find it.not even a clue of it.idk where im heading.but i need u here with me.im missing you.im worried abt u.ure out dere,all alone maybe,wad if smthing happens.idk.ure not replying my mesgs.dnt make me worry will u.y dnt u listen to me?anymore.idk.

im crying.
here comes the pain.
im holding you in my arms.
my heart beating fast cos i feel you close.
stay like this,stay with me.
pls

here comes goodbye

2009-10-20T23:03:00.002+08:00

i see you walking towards me frm afar,usually dere would be a smile on ur face frm e tyme ur eyes sees me.the darkness covers ur footsteps behind.you look at me with tears all scaring ur soft skin.ur lips are trembling,wanting to say smthing.ur fist is clench cold,i open it forcefully,it fell to the ground jus as i gt a glimpse of it.i hug you tight frm leaving.i could hear you say iloveyou frm yesterday.here comes goodbye.

2009-10-16T23:07:00.002+08:00

looking at u,it makes me smile in peace.make my world turns slowly with jus u and me.thru all dat obstacles dat we face,we face it together.nvr was dere a sec dat u tot of letting go of my hand.u held on tyte to me,cos i know u love me more den all dose words dat u say.i feel dat ive fallen too deep into ur love.i wont change,i dnt want u to leave me ever.

ku takkan berubah,ku tk ingin ko pergi slamanya.
ku kan setia menjagamu,bersama dirimu.
samopai nanti akan slalu bersamamu.

iloveyou baby.

2009-10-13T23:58:00.003+08:00

lately everytink has not been wad i use to see it with my eyes.ure not u,im not me.all dose shouting,pushing,pulling,i cnt take all dat anymore.dats wad i use to tink.*im eating and typing all dis(:*all we do is fyte and make up.idk wads gg on nomore.its like e world is turning,jus dat im turning with it.

as im out,i look up in e sky,looking at all dose clouds where we use to make fun of it,making it up with our imaginations.imissyou.i lookaway knowing dat tears are filling my eyes up.i see you frm a distance,i wanna hug u so tyte and tell u dat iloveyou.but i didnt.seeing all dose others so happy,i wonder,y arent we as happy as dey look lyke.i cnt take it nomre.i break down inside,not showing it.

its so rare to see dat genuine smile on ur face or dat giggle dat use to make me laugh till my tummy hurts.i wan to hear u asking me to do dis and dat,n i see myself mumbling to myself n u at e bk grinning urself out.all dose lillest tinks dat we do,i miss all dat.imissyou.wheres all dat gone to?i blame you!!whatever you are!!FUCKYOU!!

imissyou baby.

isit love?

2009-09-26T04:12:00.002+08:00

it was cold,den it was warm.i felt u close,i felt ur skin near to mine.ur bobing up and down.i feel all warm inside out eventho e water was freezing cold.u held me around my frame,looked into my eyes,u came close,u kissed me softly.i felt crazy and lost inside out.my legs felt weak and wondered wad would break my fall.i looked into ur eyes wen ur kiss fell apart frm mine.was i in love?i ponder.

change

2009-09-13T00:04:00.002+08:00

change is good,at tymes.

sometymes its bad.and u dk wad to do to make it better.to see dat love 1 smile,u jus dk wad to do.and wen failure comes in e way,ure chest freezes,ure tinking clogs,ure sight narrows.u fail.u break down tinking how to make dat change better,but ur head jams lyke all dat impossible bottle caps.u try harder jus to see urself fall n kiss e pavement over n over agn.u fail agn.u wanna make it better,but how?

wen u tot it was u n dat person,everytinks great.u smile,laugh,eat,sleep,everytink together.u make dat person happy,but it jus sucks big tyme wen everytink u do together is destroyed,burnt to ashes by anther party.but u dnt wanna hurt dat person.

wads wrong and wads right in life?
e path seem so wide,but im walking narrow.
my arms are open but i aint feelin you.
i have my eyes close,i feel u close,but where?

emo

2009-09-11T23:32:00.007+08:00

a night out at the playground!!(:

keep rocking love!!

iheartyou

2009-08-26T13:57:00.003+08:00

i'll love you till my last breathe(:

already gone

2009-08-15T01:19:00.003+08:00

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even without fists held high, yeah
Never would have worked out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you now
I can't stop

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you wanna cry
Started with a perfect kiss
Then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive

You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone
I'm already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone
Already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone

Already gone
Already gone
Already gone, Oooo, oh
Already gone
Already gone
Already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone
I'm already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone
Already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone.

i dnt wan dis to b a song dat will remind u of me.

wild night?

2009-08-10T15:51:00.008+08:00

yesterday,i spent my day with my family n went to eat at ramen ten.pple do wish me happy birthday,bt 1 gt my eye n gt me tinking abt it.well,i wanna.besty kiss me 17 tymes instead of hittin me.dats a phew.bt her lil bro hit me.didnt hurt dat bad.gundu jus ask ct to hug n kiss me.

at dat night,we 4,went to drink.smebody gt drunk.HAHA!!so did i actually.story yadayada yea.
gnna eat now.hung-gry.

xoxo

2009-08-08T15:26:00.000+08:00

take me on the floor(:
tadadatadadatadadada,ure killin me(:

2009-08-07T12:24:00.002+08:00

sorry christa about yesterday. it was yesterday right?see,i cant even remember them.anyways,ive jus been so busy lately with my event and 3 assignments.deres gonna be an ultimate frisbee event at ite clementi organised by me n my group members.hope everytink goes smoothly dere.deres gonna be alot of tinks to do.

dats not all of it,i still have to look 4 a job 4 my attachment dats coming soon.any recommendation?aslongas its sports,im in.but mus be smthng i know how to play larhs.any vacancy will do.pri schl will do best.

well,my life is kinda unstable right now.ill make it through,smehow.

xoxo

xoxo

2009-08-07T12:04:00.009+08:00

still going on strong(:

my 'BOYFRIEND'.

i didnt bowl mind you.im fat man!!sobsob.

wads new?

2009-07-11T01:34:00.002+08:00

i hung out with besty and hidza giler at the playground jus now rightrightright!!den right,we talk about their aunty tautautau!!den rightrightright,besty and hidza dance lyke e 'WONDER GIRLS'!!!cute abis!!!cnnt carry!!!

den rightrightright!!i gtg.tired.besty pesting me about eating ice-cream.irritating abis rightrightright!!

bye arh!!
cheerio arh!!
selamat arh!!
jalan arh!!
tkder duit arh!!
see wad see!!
go arh!!
bye arh!
(:

sometymes,its hard to forget.

2009-06-30T02:58:00.004+08:00

sometymes,jus wen i tot i was doing fine,i was loving e right 1,i was all so happy.bt in fact,wen e truth is shown,im not over it.wad we did,wad we had,wad i made u to be,is all requested frm others.jus wen i tot,jus wen i tot.

sometymes it is hard to forget.

im jus waiting to fall and sink into ur skin.

2009-06-26T22:43:00.005+08:00

I'm leaving you

I'm not sure if that’s what I should do

It hurts so bad

I'm wanting you but can't go back

Trying to find, to find

That all elusive piece of mind

Stuck here somehow

Shrouded beneath my fear

And now I don’t need it
Cuz I'm walkin down this road alone and figured all I'm thinking bout is you, is you my love

And my head is in a cloud of rain and the world it seems so far away and I'm just waiting for

The droplets, droplets
You left a mark

I wear it proudly on my chest

Above my heart

To Remind me that I feel the best

When I'm with you When I'm with you

To me everything is effortless

You know it's true

My eyes are painted with regret and I don’t need it
Cuz I'm walkin down this road alone and figured all I'm thinking bout is you, is you my love

And my head is in a cloud of rain and the world it seems so far away and I'm just waiting to fall and sink into your skin
You are like the raindrops, the raindrops falling down on me
You left a mark

you left a mark

She left a mark he left

She left he left

And I don’t I don’t

Need it. Need it

DUDE!!!where are you?!!

2009-06-20T23:44:00.002+08:00

heyya!!
i met a guy thru a prank my ex gave me.
pretty stupid of him to do dat,cos im madly in love with him.
his friend dat was his acomplice.HAH!!
he kinda regrets dat n still tells me dat he still loves me and yada3!!
im sick of dat.
we've ben calling n texting each other lately.

once again

2009-06-16T01:00:00.002+08:00

once again,im bored.im back at home.besty staying over here with me.some space at last.
see ya.

xoxo

a new start(i can blog everyday NOW!!!!)

2009-06-13T20:43:00.002+08:00

firstly i got a new laptop!!WOOHOO!!
secondly, I CAN BLOG EVERYDAY!!
3rdly,its all a new thing now.im starting everytink new n fresh.
i got an awesome bestfriend,getting to know a great guy,n copilng pretty well wit schl too.
deres jus dis 1 part of me dat aint complete.
still wanna sing in gigs.
ANY1 WANS TO MAKE A BAND WITH ME?
jokejoke.
dats it 4 now.
at mac wit a gf.

BULLY

2009-05-03T01:45:00.002+08:00

my bestfriend is such an ass.she bullies me lyke HELL.
lately ive been hanging with her.currently we're at bedok.
besty's sis hse.shes so gonna bully me hard.i jus know it.
so gonna stuff my mouth with crap n more crap.
but somewhat,its still love ya.

missing schlmate,my HAWT ibu,my gundu sis-of-shite.

lovelove.

2009-04-05T20:17:00.002+08:00

Two days straight i've not been home. We had fun, made promises. You didn't wanna let me go when I wanted to head home at 1130. I whispered, hold me tight and never let me go. Promise me. You didn't. We didn't let go. Feeling each other's heartbeat through the night, I felt love, felt you. I'm not gonna let you go, not again. You pulled me close everytime i'm a few inches away. Right before we close our eyes, you whispered to me, Atikah, I love you, I miss you. Atikah, I want you. I said, I promise, i'm yours.

2009-03-30T15:53:00.000+08:00

i love my bestfriend;c.p